Here's the thing - the less I drink, the worse I feel it the day after I actually do. I'm not really talking "hangovers", those are dependant of set variables, of course (what was consumed, how much, drinking water before going to bed, etc.)...I mean my brain. I've always noticed my brain-scramble days neatly coincided with drinking, and more than one of my little episodes have been partly induced, I think, by alcohol. And of course, being "off" at the moment, I may be rambling a little too openly about my personal stuff, but whatever. I tend to get into what I can only describe as a scramble. Like I'm walking around with a little fog inside my head. Can't really think straight. Hard to hold a conversation or do too much of anything outside of my own head. Hard to explain, I guess. I've been told by a couple, um, Doctors, that it's connected to the whole depression/anxiety thing...I guess you could say that's the case, but not really, because it's been a while since I've had to deal with all that. Anxiety is still there, I guess, but not like before. It's just a brain chemistry thing. And alcohol does not play well with my chemistry. Especially tequila :P

But yeah, drinking is becoming less and less something I look forward to, and not as enjoyable even when I do go out. Hrmph.

Am I getting old? Fuck.